It seemed like a good idea at the time.

( TEGAKI HRNNNG. )

( Yaddayadda too lazy to be too coherent again. )

In other news,
I was actually able to make lunch for myself today.
AN ENTIRE SANDWICH OH MY LORD FOOD I LOVE FOODJHgjkghhomnhonghfkdg good food. ;w;
I am eating it now
I am going to eat it
...

~*~I ate it~*~

So hi.

I basically just deleted one of my super long LJ ranting-to-catch-up-on-my-life posts, and am now incredibly frustrated. Fuck my life. In my rage, I will now, instead, update on my life by throwing up things in point form. Hopefully this will go better than previous attempts. If you want details, comment and ask, otherwise, I will simply be giving you the skeleton of things.

( This's short... depending on how you look at things. )


LJ isn't allowing me to view any of yours guys' 'mature' entries. I had this issue before, because I was a dork and admitted to my real age when I first signed up; so, I changed my birth date and it temporarily resolved the issue, but... once more, it's not working. I'm not sure why this is, or if I have to wait until my 18th birthday for it to be resolved. If I do, no biggie, it's pretty close, haha.

Best wishes to all of you, uh... We can only wish that I'll start to update more often so things don't pile up on me and I don't have to rant about them as I do for chunks at a time. Feel free to ask about any specifics on anything I just mentioned, if you guys feel the need. ene

FARE THEE WELL.

What

what
oh
what
I
I-I'm alive I just
wait
let me catch my bre-
OSHI-
NO, IT'S CATCHING UP, I CAN'-
LIFE, IT'S RIGHT BEHIND M-
gjlsdhkjghhkfaskdasgt.

( An attempt at a brief summarization to let a few of you know what's been going on. )

AND NOW I MUST DEPART.. I apologize if I seem like a total jerk for being inactive and not being... reply-y... and... not commenting on people's journals as of late. Nevermind journals, just, everywhere. I'M NOT NOT DOING IT BECAUSE I DISLIKE YOU, OR FIND YOU BORING, OR WHINY, OR THAT I FEEL I HAVE BETTER THINGS TO DO ON THE INTERBUTTS. I miss talking with a lot of you, EVEN IF YOU DON'T MISS ME, BAW. The internet just hasn't been very accessible for me as of late (again, WHAT'S NEW?).

Fare thee well, for now.

I'M SORRY I'M POSTING TEN MINUTES AFTER MY LAST POST BUT
BUT
I GUESS IF YOU DON'T WANT TO READ THE WANGST THIS IS SOMETHING DIFFERENT, SO
I saw this a week ago and was going to share it with those who hadn't already seen it, and then I... forgot... and... I just saw it on TV again, and... why do I find this amazing. I genuinely adore this.

Blargle
throat's feeling better, still not sure what it initially was, but hopefully that means I didn't... have tonsillitis and it... somehow went away for a bit... I don't know.

Things're going down down down again.

Couldn't go to Sam's birthday; sorry buddy. ; ; I really wanted to come. I AM GETTING YOU YOUR PRESENT AS SOON AS I CAN WHETHER YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE IT OR NOT. You'd better tell me about the ~STUPENDOUS ADVENTURES~ YOU GUYS HAD.

Parents are pressuring me to withdraw from school.
Have to decide by this Tuesday if I'm doing that and getting a full-time job, because I'll have the time to if I do withdraw, to pay them hundreds~thousands of dollars per month to stay in the house, or... I don't know.

I've really wanted to try distance education, or going to one of the local ed. centers since forever ago, but I put off asking my parents about it because I knew they'd never buy it. They'd comment that I was just attempting to find an easy way out again, that everyone has to go through this, that they were beaten and abused as kids and I should feel grateful, etc.. That if I had the motivation to do that, why not high school?

Nng, I know that, I feel badly enough. Not for myself, but for the shit I've made them put up with, made my sister put up with, made all these workers put up with. Dumbass trouble. Just not doing the work. I don't know. Burdening.

I just think the distance ed., or the centers would be a really good idea for me, because I could work at my own pace. I haven't tried in almost four years now. Not to the extent I used to be able to, at least, if that makes sense. I've fallen out of knowing how. I think I mentioned this before in one of my previous entries. I have the intelligence to learn these kind of things (or so I'd like to think), but I don't have the common practices, or habits, or... I'm not sure how else to describe it.


Grah.
I guess I'm off to try and eat more than one meal today aaaghhh what is up with my eating habits lately.

Hnnnnnnnnnnng I feel like a cheese grater fashioned into a small ball was lodged down my throat for half a week, and I'm only now feeling the effects of the swelling/healing/whatever. I can't swallowww.

Well, SHOULD BE healing, even though I'm spitting out blood. YAYYYYYYYYYYYYyyfgsdhf WHY HAVE I BEEN SICK FOR ALMOST TWO WEEKS NOW WHEN I HAVE AN IMMUNE SYSTEM OF STEEL HRNNNNGGG. Going into the doctor after school either really quickly before ~family therapy~ today... or after... I guess...


Let's see let's see what's been a-hippenin' and a hoppinin'...

Went to Em's house last week to attempt a redye at my EXTREME ROOTS. Didn't... work out exactly as planned... So I went to my normal hair place to fix it.

Also... didn't work out exactly as planned. HOW DID IT TURN OUT COPPER. And that cut that cut how did you even cut it like that I mean hghgnhsdfg okay calm down we've already gotten over this. Yay 85$ wasted overallllll. I'm supposed to call her today if it hadn't "fixed itself" by now. I'm hoping that means she'll let me go in to get it 'fixed' (even though that's what I went to her for in the first place) without having to spend more money.


Didn't go to Keikon because I was sick at that time, as mentioned, and because I didn't have the cash for it after that unfortunate splurge. Oh weeell. I heard they didn't have a dance/rave (the hell?), and that's a large part of why I'd go to such a small con (other than the hanging out with friends/meeting new friends bit, that's pretty much it).


Oh! Oh! I watched Tekkonkinkreet in Digital Media the other day (didn't have much else to do... had completed all of my necessary assignments, and the class tablet was in use, sooo...). I was very pleeeased with it when it came to the animation (though some elements of it took some getting used to), and the music by Plaid AHHHHHHHHhhhfhsdk. Yeah, pleasing. There was something in the plot that was just... it twinged at me a bit. A little bit missing, I don't know. I don't disagree that it's a great movie, and definitely something I'd recommend or watch again, but it's not one of my absolute favourites.


( Blahblah FFXI and plot development and and things. )


Gggggggin other news, family therapy is... interesting. Dad bawwing, mom nodding and smiling at EVERYTHING SAID EVER TO INFINITY AND BEYOND, and sister rolling all over the room in boredom and/or discomfort, hooooooo~
But yeah! My sister's finally getting a counselor she can speak to by herself... after asking me about one for over three quarters of a year... so that's good, I suppose...


I've fallen into one of my a-bit-more-absent-from-things-in-general,-compared-to-usual,-at-least phases as of late because of how sick I've been, and just... for reasons... so, just a heads up to those who might be wondering where I am.

Hey guys I had a pretty cooliooooo Saturday evening. I HAD A HOT ASIAN DATE except not really
ilu Jojo
my daughter and girlfriend AT THE SAME TIME.
Em, being cool, pesteredpersuaded me to tag along with them to some dance, and dressed me up in some Dandy fashion stuff. I bound, and wore seven inch pumps/boots.
Needless to say, I ached pretty badly for the next day.
I'd post pics buuuuut eh. I don't know. I KNOW YOU GUYS DON'T CARE WHAAAAAAAAmbulanceoh hey hahaha an ambulance just went by, that's pretty kickin'.


I'm reading Brave New World and I like it so far, because I can; SCREW YOU.


IN OTHER NEWS, BAAAA( AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA )AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWthe end.


Aughh I've been chewing through my bottom lip repeatedly and I just
keep forgetting not to and
even when I remember I just don't stop
BLEEDING HORRENDOUSLY AHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhfdfsh if I keep doing it eventually the pain will stop. c: c: c: Amirite amirite. C8 I TAKE GOOD CARE OF MYSELF.
On the plus side, I just realized my wrists and stomach aren't horrible lately because I've been chewing my lip instead of scratching/tearing myself open in the middle of the night.


I'll be on ebuddy until, maybe, a bit after 3 today because of ~computer~-involved classes and such... depending on if the sub librarian closes up early... again... nng, if any of you wanted to know, like Saaam or Ariannaaa or whoever, though I don't know if you'll be on, considering your school schedules.


Also, fuck you, Brenna, for hitting a homer on one of your comments in that conversation Jojo sent me.

>8C

HOW DARE YOU PLAY BASEBALL WITH MY OPERATING SYSTEM.


YES. LAZY GRAMMAR AND RUN ON SENTENCES.

Uhm
I am confused.
Except
not really
at all.



Where is his typical animu reaction.
Nosebleed.
Blush.
Sparkly eyes.
Whatever.

I'm sorry, I just
I
I have to point these things out.

I guess Ailac doesn't believe in the SPIRIT OF SUMMERTIME FRUIT
AKA WATERMELON
AKA BREASTS.

Yesssss two of my classes for this semester involve computers on a regular basis ahahahah
that's probably bad for my long-term efforts, but
nyeeeh.

Also it prooobably won't matter for too long... I might be moving into distance education or going to a center for
stuff
things
wow I am just
lazy today.


( Doctor resuuults. Blahblahblah. )



( Lit/Beowulf/RELIGIONFFFFFF. )




Valentine's is this Saturday. I think. Wait. When is it.

...Yeah, I think it's this Saturday. Wow, that came fast.

I don't much care for it. The only part of me that enjoys it is my gluttonous/greedy side (hurrah chocolate/candy/whatever else). It's not that I hate it or don't like it. It's that I just don't care for it. It doesn't excite me. I don't feel for it much at all. It bothers me a bit, because I don't like holidays that center around ~being together~ and ~loving one another~ ~etc.~, but that's pretty much it. No, not because I'm a REBELLIOUS, AGAINST-SOCIETY TEENAGER WHO DESPISES AFFECTION, LOVE, OR ANY KIND OF PLEASANT FEELINGS, but because I think it's, simply put, ludicrous that we need to have single days in which we celebrate or try to have these kind of things. I know it's a far stretch for me to say, "We should really practice these habits on a more regular basis, even if it means not doing so to the extremes, or with the flair that we would on these holidays." but it would be nice, heh.


...I should be a hypocrite and make this fun for myself by making Valentines and sending them out to my long-distance friends, some of them being you guys. Letters are cheap/no money so I'd be able to get them out easier than the scarves which I haventjhasdaklsdh;ahsdjk;asdjk /wrist /wrist I'M SORRY. Goddamn shipping. THEY'RE SITTING IN MY ROOM AHHHHHHhhhhhhhhgfhfds.



Alsooo Keikon the weekend after this weekend. And Sam's birthday. Andhhfghdsgf. I'm not all that excited for Keikon, to be honest, for whatever reason. I'm not that excited about much anymore ahhhh but Sam's birthday should be fun, I know that. DON'T FEEL THE NEED TO BUY ME MANGO FOR THAT PAVLOVA, YOU DORK FHGFHFGSdsfgj.

Also-also I FINALLY CAUGHT AN UXIE AND AZELF I'M OKAY WITH. AND A DIALGA HOLY SHITHISDjsdfh. Which means I finally compeleted my sighted-Pokémon 'dex, which means I finally have the Pokéradar, which means I can finally start my dream team. It took me 48 resets (and I only recently learned what a soft-reset is orz) for Dialga, and I still wasn't that pleased with his attack, but whatever. I stopped counting with Azelf. It takes goddamn forever to catch any of the legendary lake trio, nevermind one with stats/a nature you like. Again, I wasn't too pleased with Azelf's attack, BUT HIS SPEED WAS SO GOOD HOLY CRAP and his special attack makes me feel all squishy inside. Uxie is another story.

...And I will probably never use any of these legendaries in a 'team', considering I'm probably only going to be partial to non-legendary and non-pseudo-legendary link/wifi battles... Wow.

...It doesn't help that I'm completely anal and refuse to catch them in anything other than a normal Pokéball.


Wow, this entry was full of nothing.

( Spending shitloads of money we don't have, among other things. )


I'm writing a vague idea of what happened in the past week or so in point form because I spent a half hour trying to type/rant and I just
I'm not
coherent
with the english and the writing and the communicating lately
very well
at all.

-Shitfest happened
-Parents called everyone that is involved with our 'Famry management' aka 'those who I bitch to about them being horrible people and me being perfect and etc. obviously'
-Social worker showed up the evening of Xmas eve
-She spoke to my parents briefly while they cheerily put up their usual front and etc. blahblah
-They stopped trying to physically force me out of the house afterwards, but nothing was really sorted out, as per the usual

~Within the week after~
-Everything was even more tense than usual, as expected
-Social worker brought up me going in to the doctor for a full check-up (IdkIdkIdk they want to find out if there's anything ~wrong with me~), which was originally brought up a month ago (parents were initially very defensive about this for some reason and found it to be a bad idea. I still don't understand why, but alright then)
-Mother finally consented to having this done, she only yesterday called the doctor about it and got me an appointment for the 20th
-Got Kurada's presents which AHHHHHhhdhsdf MADE MY EVERYTHING BETTER THANK YOU
-I went to Arianna's to get myself away from my parents in the hopes that [them - me for a bit = less pissyness]
-I stayed up two and a half days in a row, including the time spent travelling there, and generally had fun
-Sam got me Minish Cap shit yeah (daaaaamnit I can't believe I forgot to bring your present Sam ahhhghgghffd I'LL GET IT TO YOU SOON ENOUGH)

and finally

-fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuckkkkkkkkkkkkkfshajasdgh


I've been losing hair at an abnormal rate for the past
uhm...
few months. I showed my dad what I'd meant and he kind of freaked out. He thought I was exaggerating and ahahahahno.

Also, cold.
Always
so
very
cold.
And in the weirdest situations.


The snow here has been ridiculous. We never get this much. The last time we got this much was when I was much younger before everyone was lolglobalwarming.
I got kind of lost on the way back from Arianna's house because of it. Two hour ferry ride, then the bus I take that's supposed to stop at Ladner went all the way to the airport instead. I took another bus to just get me straight to the seabus intstead of crossing the bridge, and that one decides to break down at 62nd and Granville. I get out and wait, while it's still snowing vehemently, and an hour passes. I see the bus coming, finally, but when it gets close enough it says it's FULLfkjshd. So I think, 'Alright, if I'm lucky, someone will get off at this stop. Yeah. Right. Okay.' it slows down ('yes!') and stops next to the broken down bus. 'Okay, so, he's talking to the other bus driver, no big, just wait, Chayce.' Yeah, uh, I waited. Another half hour. It didn't move. 'Um...'

It had gotten stuck in the snow upon stopping and losing momentum. AHHHH IRONY FFUKKCKCJSHFJK. So they spend the next half hour trying to get it started up, and do ('yes!')... and then it slides and slams into the other broken down bus, causing it to break down itself.

fdjladg
sgd
no other buses came

I finally just called my dad and waited three hours or so for him to come pick me up (thx btw dadlolol).
It was a long evening.



Oh, hay, also, since I got a wii (ALSO AHHH A DS DUE TO SOME THINGS AND FFF I'VE BEEN ASKED NOT TO SAY ANYTHING ABOUT IT BUT I'M GETTING A DS fsdh I feel spoiled what the hell) I can ~play~ with any of you guys that have one, if you want. I have Pokemon Battle Revolution, Super Smash Brothers Brawl, and I'm getting Diamond for my DS sooooooon so so so uhm
brawl or pokeidiocy anyone?



Uhm. I just got kicked off the music-Japan trip which I've been looking forward to for four years. Teacher withdrew me because she was worried about me not being able to handle it what with what's going on at my house.
Or something.
Oh well.



I don't know what else.
I just feel
I don't know
and I really want everything in my house to get better, but I don't see that happening, and...
and
nnn
at the same time I'm pretty much done, I've just completely given in. I used to be really passive, as it were, but now just... yeah.


I wish I could stop being a walking oxymoron.
I wish I could live for myself instead of just living for others, and yet stop being so selfish.

I wish I was more useful.


Also,
shut up you guys I'm not a furry I just appreciate the culture
a little bit
shut up.

Uhhhhh yeah hi everyone.
Haven't updated lately because I've been pretty busy with
things
and
stuff.


Uhm.

This is only really a quick announcement detailing that I'm going to be taking a hiatus until who knows when, again.

I'm literally on the verge of being kicked out of my house at the moment, aaahhhfffffahahah um. Yeah the last person who I thought would do this, my dad, is pretty much calling up people to 'have me removed'. They received a message from school detailing that I'm not doing so well in Social Studies, to say the least, this morning, even though my mark was recently brought up past 50%. I think the system screwed it up and sent an old letter saying I'm at 28% or something I don't knowww ahhh I'm done caring right now. Tired.


Uh,
so...
huh.

Parents are out at the moment, if you're confused as to how I'm able to get on. Just thought I'd 'fyi' everyone.


. . .Merry Xmas?

It's really awkward when you're turning the corner to get to class late, and you encounter your vice principle flirting with your digital media teacher.

...Yeah.


Uh...
my grandma left this morning. We had some cooool times.
...Not much else to say. It was pretty much the norm for my parents, unfortunately (minus any kind of drama my dad might have caused, though he rarely does), so blahblah repeat of everything.

I went to Metro with her, spent time with her doing other stuff... uh... I promised her a sketch or something for her birthday, and she's asked me to draw her cats. Or a cat.
...I don't remember the last time I drew a cat. We'll see how this goes, what with my un-skills.


Obsessive/infatuated with me/blahblah people have been saying or offering (aka FORCING) the idea of buying me hundreds of dollars in gifts. This makes me very uncomfortable. The good thing is is that ALL OF THESE PEOPLE SHOULD KNOW THAT I AM NOT IN A POSITION TO BE WHAT THEY WANT ME TO BE blahblah so I'm not purposefully taking advantage of them. 8/ I don't want to be taking advantage of them, or seem like I'm trying to. I've been trying to tell them, "I hope you're not getting me these because you hope that..."
or, "I appreciate the thought very much, but you realize that..."
I'm bad with taking things, anyways, but I'm literally being offered bouquets of ball-jointed dolls, DS Lites, and anime DVD box sets.
tldr;
DON'T SPEND YOUR MONEY ON ME I'M NOT WORTH THAT MUCH BAW SERIOUSLY WHAT THE HELL.


I am killing myself over camping the Valkurm Emperor in FFXI. Nnnnng one-hour lottery spawn with an 18.6% chance of dropping that hairpin...
...Is this even worth it.
I'd go /THF for treasure hunter if it weren't for the fact that I need /RNG for widescan, and I have to go WHM so that I can use Flash for fast pulls.
...Wh-why am I even talking about this. What am I saying.
I should mention that I checked my 'Play Time' the other day on this retched thing of an MMORPG.
...I recently breached the 200 day mark. It was 200 days and 6 hours or something, bound to be more by now.
This means I have wasted over 200 days of my life playing this game. This doesn't mean I have logged in 200 times, or whatever else. It means I have spent a literal time of 200 days on this game. Well, at least on my main character.
I am horrible.


Oh hey, I finally got a couple of solos in choir this year. Seniors always get priority, and I'm there, so whoooo. It's for our Xmas performances, though (malls, ollllld homes, Xmas display... park... things I don't know stuff like that). I've got the breaking-windows-pitch highest part in Carol of the Bells, and a solo for about half of The Chipmunk Song (SHUT UP YOU GUYS I LIKE THIS SONG WHEN NOT SUNG BY WHINY RODENTS NNNgnnngfg). CHEER ME ON. >8C Please. S-seriously. I-I'm going to be s-singing in front of m-many people m-many times. I-I'm not excellent at that y-yet.


...I think there was a point to this entry, but I've forgotten. It was something important... some kind of question I had to ask everyone... aghuhughuhgghh what was iiit.
Well, I'm late to something, so...
I'll make another entry later tonight if I'm not too lazy/actually remember/blahblarrhghgldsfajffffffffffffffoh god I'm tired.

HAVE A LESS THAN SHITTY EVENING, EVERYONE.

( ...Shortest journal entry to date? ...Maybe. I didn't know where to cut this, so... )

Yes
yes, my dear sir sitting beside me
yes my belt is undone

WHAT'S IT TO YOU.

( Hallowe'en/drama/lalalala. )


( Long conversation during stupid Hallowe'en drama is long )

( The rest. )



There's more stuff going on right now for me, but I'm just going to wrap it up with this:


( BawwwFEELINGS. )

O-oh my lord, Hyadain. Just
Hyadain. Have sex with me.

Hyadain I am going to start crying manly tears of inspiration and the tears will be so manly and impressed by you that they will actually be sprouts of hair falling from my eyeballs because the testosterone stimulated in my otherwise frail body (compared to your oh-so studly one) will not know what to do with itself and these hairs will be weaved by yours truly into violin strings which I will craft a violin for out of the morning wood that I have for you and your music and I will send you this violin and you will make a song with this violin and upload it but the video will actually be you just saying, "Oh cry me a river you creepy fan I'm busy making amazing music that you obviously don't appreciate as much as you should" but you understand only a small amount of English so you'll probably be saying it in really bad Engrish or Japanese like, "Oh cly me rivah stlange rittre girl, i bizy desu" while playing said violin along to your beautiful voice manipulations and I will cry and cry and cry but I'll still wait for your next piece and listen and listen and listen and and AND

NNNNGGGGBAWWWWWWWW MUSIIIIIIIIC

How does he manipulate his voice like that. Just. Just. I want to learn these things.



Um. Hallowe'en is tomorrow you guys. TELL ME WHAT YOU'RE DOING/DRESSING UP AS/NOT DRESSING UP AS so I can mock you
I mean
so I can say how amazing that sounds in comparison to my plans.

( Hallowe'en and um other things such as um MY LIFE and uhm that is to say yes hi boring things. )



( TTGL shit. Why do I do this. )


I think it's amusing that the things that keep me sane are the things that have made me insane.


So, yeah.

I am basically
a horribly horrible person
life storyblahblah
the end.

Three videos for you guys from a new ad campaign that I am just ecstatic about. Yes, I realize the first one has Hilary Duff in it, but bear with me if you're not fond of her. I'm kind of, "Umloloh okay that's cool I guess no that's pretty awesome no actually I'm not sure what to think" myself, but meh.

( That's so- SHUT UP GAY IS NOT A SYNONYM FOR STUPID. )

The last one is my favouriteahaha hahahahaaaaa. Ha.

Anyways.

What else.

Oh yeah this so this is the job I am vry srsly doing a research project on for YTRPL/BCA Transitions/Planning/whatever the heck that X-Block class is. Yes I am vry, vry srs about this career don't judge me.



( yesyesyesyesyesyesyesyou want to read this TRUST ME BABY HOLD ME TIGHT )



Why is it that whenever I type 'lj-cut' I immediately think 'lj-cuticle'. Wtf brain what are you doing in there.

Fuck I love Gorillaz. ♥

So it looks like I'm being punished for something that hasn't, and I'm not planning to have happen.

lolwut.

( Uhhhhhh. )


So, the other day (a while ago...) it was raining and I saw a HUMONGOUS raven perched on the fence outside of my school. It was magnificent.

I was in a really good mood because it, well, it was raining, and I slowly tried to approach it. There was no one else around because it was around 5PM. It, oddly enough, allowed me to get near. I reached up precariously and was actually able to stroke its feathers twice before it hopped along the fence to the right and ruffled itself, taking off.

Interesting encounter.


I relayed it to my friend and she said I was going to get SARS. :c OH WELL everything nowadays gives you cancer, anyways. Looking at the stars gives you cancer. Breathing gives you cancer. Touching yourself gives you cancer. LIVING GIVES YOU CANCER.



To wrap things up,
HEY! HEY! LISTEN!

I know a couple of you have already heard of this, but...

I really want any of you interested in gaming with an Xbox/PS2/PS3/non-public computer to check this out.

Square Enix and its PlayOnline franchise have recently released a deal in which they are allowing new players to direct download and play Final Fantasy XI for free, without need for (from what I know) registering a credit card for fourteen days. It's just to give new, possible customers a taste of the game for two weeks, to know what they'd be paying for (though two weeks, in my honest opinion, is barely enough to taste much. It's a humongous game and takes at least a month to get into the good beginning chunks of the plot... granted, if you have things to attend to irl).

http://www.finalfantasyxi.com/

They just released that site and have a good amount of information on it for beginning players, so... if any of you do take an interest... all it'll take up is some space on your computer, time, and my excitement at having new people/friends to play with (even if it's only for two weeks). >_>;

Also, a note;
If you wanted to play for more than the two weeks and still be cheap (goodness knows I am), once you sign up for a new account officially with a credit card, you get the first 30 days free.
...Technically, you could play the first two weeks, then sign up, and cancel your account by the end of the next month, all for free.

Pfffshhh but that's just me trying to be even more of an infectant and lure you all in.


I'm on the Phoenix server, so if you do join, and aren't afraid to associate yourself with my antics, I have a level 70 White Mage totally ready to help you through the early levels! o_o

Heyyyyhave little access lately, so, typed this up in pieces when I could.

( How That Tuesday Went, Days Proceding, Etc., Etc., Etc.. )


Ugh, anyways.


So, I've been tired for the past two weeks, but that's a given at all times. I've been staying at friends' places for every weekend, and sometimes other days, since then. I'm basically unwelcome in the household by my mother, so I've been avoiding being there or in her vicinity as much as possible. Pretty much the same as normal, but to a further degree. Had a few other confrontations, most of them srz bzness discussions with my dad, or mother grarghalarg'ing.

It's... what day is it... Monday, right. The family counselor's supposed to be coming in for the first time today. One of the social workers mentioned that it'd be at some time around 11, though I'm not sure how that'll work seeing how both Chloe and I will be in school... maybe it's just for the first session.

Uh... Finally got some new shoes yesterday! Alright! No more bloody gashes on the backs of my feet! Also, no Vans for once. They failed me this year when it came to sizing. TINY FEET ARE TINY FADLHJKLSHD WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU DON'T HAVE GUYS' SHOES IN SIXES?! Tryin' Circas instead. They're NEON BLUE on the inside, but my normal black on the outside. I need some shibby shoelaces.

My dad randomly handed me ten bucks last week and said, "Here, your allowance."

My basic reaction was, "Uh... lolwut. Why wut I can't take this I haven't done anything just just why."

"Well, I don't see how it makes sense if your sister gets a 15$ allowance every week and you get nothing."

Orly, dad. Orly. Okay then. Thanksss be to you, my dear sir.

So that's pretty spankin'. Pretty cool beans 'n' spiffy 'n' all that. Though, ahaha, I'll probably just be blowing it all on transit like I have to with all of my money. Still convenient, though; I definitely appreciate it.


Uhhhm. Um.
IN OTHER NEWS, I HAVE PLAYED A PHOENIX WRIGHT GAME FOR THE FIRST TIME. Holy shit holy shit I am obsessed ffghghksfkjdh MOMMY I WANT TO BE A LAWYER WHEN I GROW UP b-but not really because that'd take too much work and I'd feel ~*~dirty~*~ for having a job like that. Honestly, it'd be fun, but only for a while, annnd I already know what I'd like to do. Played the second game because my friend had it and lent it to me (used my sister's DS...) after I'd cleared the first trial and immediately fell for it entirely. Edgeworth's emo expressions are lulz.

Also ALMOST HAVE MY FIRST LEVEL 75 JOB ON FFXI. DRAGOON GOGOGO. Dear Altana this is pathetic, I've been playing for around four years now and don't have one job capped ahahahha... ha... I DON'T PLAY THE GAME TO LEVEL UP YOU GUYS OKAY OKAY DON'T JUDGE ME I LIKE THE ~*~MUSIC~*~ AND TO ~*~EXPLORE THE INCREDIBLE AREAS/LANDSCAPES~*~ AND TO ~*~INTERACT WITH PEOPLE~*~ AND FOR THE ~*~TALES/STORIES/PLOT~*~ AND AND TO ~*~LAUGH~*~ AND ~*~CRY~*~ AND DON'T JUDGE ME.

Also I wish I could GD even though I don't have the ~*~creative energy~*~ to. Not that I had that to begin with. Well I do if you take out ~*~creative energy~*~ and replace it with 'ability to ~*~*~*~*~bullshit~*~*~*~*~.'

I keep forgetting hallowe'en is coming up. This makes me disappointed in myself.
WHICH LITTLE BOY SHOULD I DRESS UP AS NNNGGGFfgkhgfds.
My friend wants to dress me up in lolita, my other friend wants to dress me up in kodona, my other-other friend wants me to go as- just oh god why do I even have friends.


Oh, also, ugh relationships j-just get the hell out of my life I don't understand you STOP BEING THRUST IN MY FACE WITH YOUR ~ISSUES~.

( Dear miscellaneous... )

I bet I'm not the only one who wishes I'd write shorter lyyyyyyyvejornahl entries, huh. Yeah, maybe if I didn't have to post every two weeks and didn't have anything going on in my life (which is weird, let me tell you. LET ME TELL YOU. LET ME. ABOUT THE THINGS. ABOUT THE PLACES. ABOUT PEOPLE. ABOUT THE STORIES I'VE MADE. THESE THINGS. THESE THINGS I'VE SEEN. MAH BOIIIIIII). Also, if I could resist ranting and had the ability to summarize without having perfectionist and lazy feelings conflicting. Yeah. That'd probably help.

( Three... Two... On- )

PS;
Thank you, everyone. ♥ I appreciate everything you've said/done for me. I hope to speak with you all soon.